If Only

I can remember your words. I can remember your touch. But I just can’t figure it out.

Atleast I know your name. But I can’t remember the face.

If my brain forgets about anything, does my heart do so?

If my consciousness is about to crack, who will be the last I will remember?

I just wonder what am I feeling.

I looked in the mirror and I see myself. I looked in my hand and I see the faith.

But I just can’t figure it out.

I wonder if I were to feel something, what would it be?

I can’t feel pain. I can’t feel sadness.

I can’t even smile. I can’t even grin.

I just wonder when will it ever end.

Whenever I’m thinking about the possibilities, I can’t help myself but to feel this.

I’m afraid.

How can I make myself put back into pieces when I know that I’m so scattered.

How can I feel the joy if I can’t remember it anymore.

If I were to choose what will I bring to life, what would I pick?

Is it the love ones that fades or the memory I can’t remember?

I think I’m just missing your touch. I guess I’m longing for you.

But what can I do? I can’t turn back time. If I could, then I would.

I’m willing to give my forever if it’s payback is one more chance with you.

I didn’t cherish the days when I’m with you.

And now I’m in agony because I miss you.

When i know there’s no place, there’s no chance to see you again.

In my dreams maybe.

But I know someday, somehow, we’ll see each other.

Hope you will remember me.

As I will not forget you.

You are the one that I will treasure.

It’s so sad to know that if you will gone, there’s no chance in heaven that I will see you again.

Unless I die, and I’m not sure if there’s place up there to see you again.

Sa Mundong Bilog..

Naisip ko lang, bakit nga ba ako naguguluhan. Isip ko’y litung-lito sa mga bagay na wala namang kabuluhan (sa tingin ko). Nais ko lang naman mabuhay ng naaayon sa gusto ko, hindi kung ano ang gusto ng mga tao para sa’kin. Minsan tinatanong ko, pano na kaya ako sa mga darating na taon?Ano kaya ang aking kalagayan sa pagdating ng mga panahong kinatatakutan kong malapit na ring dumating. Natatakot akong isipin na di magtatagal, akin iyong sasapitin ngunit wala naman akong magawa, tadhana nga, ika nila. Pilitin ko mang maging matapang, isipin na wala lang, ngunit meron sa loob ko na pilit akong ginagambala. Sinasabi nito na ako’y maghanda. Oh god! natatakot na talaga ako.

Ayoko ng matakot, ayoko ng mangamba. Sa oras na iya’y dumating, akin na lang haharapin. Iyan ang magiging pananaw ko. Upang sa aking paghihintay, sa pangyayaring yaon, Akin namang malasap ang mamuhay ng walang iniisip na pangamba na naghihintay sa paglipas ng panahon at pagdaan ng mga taon. Ninanais ko lamang na mabuhay sa piling ng mga taong minamahal ko. Mga taong mahal ko, ngunit di ko alam kung mahal ba talaga ako.  Wala na akong pakialam sa kanilang nararamdaman, basta ang alam ko, mahal ko sila.

Gusto ko ng makalaya, sa aking pagkakakulong. Matagal na akong bihag ng kaisipang ito. Ayoko ng isipin pa ang aking kahihinatnan. Ayoko ng damdamin pa ang aking kahinaan. Sana ay lagi ka na lang nandiyan. Nanginginig na ako. Gusto ko namang maramdaman ang init ng iyong yakap. Ayoko ng mag-isa, sa akin ka na lang sinta. Ano ba itong sinasabi ko? Nahihibang na ata ako.

Nasaan Na Nga Ba?

Being Straight-Forward is What I like

Maybe I’m wrong if I say you don’t mean anything

I know in myself that you’re something

The first time I laid my eyes on you

I know that my feeling is so true

I saw you last saturday night

You came to me and I see you alright

As if you don’t have a problem

But I know you missed me so sudden

It’s not wrong for me to like you

I can’t help myself but to fall for you

You are nice and feet’s always on the ground

My world’s rocking up when I see you ’round

I may say your the best man ever

Wish you may say I’m your girl forever

You are so kind and wonderful

You make my life so colorful

Next time we see each other

I’ll tell you we should be together

I hate it when your denying

Though I see you smiling

I hope soon you can get the guts

To tell me that you love me so much

I really like being straight-forward

‘Coz I don’t want you to make it hard

The hardest part is not accomplish

I wish you can do some polish

Before it’s too late just keep on moving

I don’t want it to go for nothing

Just Not The End

It’s been a while since I haven’t see you
I have almost forget I knew you
Sometimes I wonder if I will see you again
But I wish it won’t be the end

It’s like a short time since we’ve met
I wish there’s a chance I could get
That seeing you will wont be that hard
‘Coz I know I’ve missed you so much

I know someday we will see each other
For me it really matters
That once I’ve loved you as a friend
I’ll never forget that feeling’s since then

Waiting In Vain

A new day comes in without you again still anyway

I just felt some ache seeing you the other way

I am so depress while you’re in her side

While me staying on the outside

I really can’t stand that things went wrong

But I’m supposed to be really strong

I don’t want you to see me crying

Although inside I’m really dying

Each time I see her I wish I were her

Envying the fact that she’s now your lover

I don’t want to live like this

Maybe I’ll forget, this feeling’s shit

There’s a fact I’ve almost forgotten

For the long time I’ve been heart broken

That I live before I met you

Then I can live even without you

It’s been a while since I’ve been dumb

Thank God I’m awake by the bomb

For loving you so unconditionally

Still treating me so painfully

Don’t worry I don’t have any anger

I’m so happy I made it better

Instead of waiting to nothing

Now I’m ready for everything 

Welcome to i.PH Blogs! Huzzah!

I am Jobelle Arnie Bautista, born on November 9, 1992 in Manila, Philippines. I’m currently living in Cavite. I’m a freshman college student and so confuse if I’ll go on Falcons or Green Archers. I like to take BS Information Technology because computer work is my passion.

My father’s name is Ranilo Bautista and he is a Computer/Electronics Technician and he’s running a Computer Business in Caloocan.

My mother’s name is Yolanda Elenterio, a plain housewife of my father.

I have one sister, she is Jessica Elenterio, an ECE, graduated in Lyceum and works as an Assistant Manager in DCDC located in Makati.

I have two brothers, they are Lester and Julius. They both have their own families with kids.

I’ve finished my elementary level in Manuel L. Quezon and went to Manila High School then I’ve graduated there this year 2009.

When I’m at home, I stay in my room, watching DVD, my favorite movies. Sometimes I’ll go on singing. When I feel something I always wrote it, it could be a poem or a composition.

I like to be the most famous writer someday. I want to be recognize as one of the most influential person in the world. Wow! I’ve imagine so much. ☻ Someday I’ll see myself as the person who will make an invinsible virus in computer world. A well-known hacker and a computer angel that can cure that deadliest virus I’ve  made in your favorite computer. But now, I’ll pursue myself to be the very best in my chosen field of work. If I made it, I know that “Someday’s” will become one of this days!!

Then let’s call it a day.. Now you know something about me. Would you like to share yours?